How do you do it?

How do you balance work and life and self and all of the bullshit in between?

This week I was a big fat failure in the balance department. I got flooded with freelance (which is awesome) and I ended up on some sort of bizarre hamster wheel ride that felt like I was simultaneously sprinting and getting nowhere all at once. And let me tell you, I don’t sprint. I worked my little (ok, shrinking) ass off and still managed to feel like an utter failure.

Guilt is a seriously powerful thing. It grabs you by the balls (whether you have them or not) and settles in for the long haul. Once it’s got you, it never wants to let you go.

Lately I’ve found myself in an endless guilt cycle. I feel guilty that I’m spending too much time on freelance work and not enough time playing with the kids. Then I feel guilty that I’m spending too much time on moving and everything wrapped up in it and not enough time with the kids or working. Then I throw myself into spending as much time as I can with the kids and feel guilty that I’m not doing more work and making more money so that we can feed and clothe and shelter the kids. When will it stop?!

Source: Merci Merci